It's 6.47am and I've gotten my posting results. I've decided NOT to come to school due to specific reasons. Allright, here we go. It's an RA post today and I'm going to dwell and say out all the things I've been yearning to say out about PAE. I didn't come to school today because of History. I don't like him. Fine Ms Lee if you're gonna humiliate me and think I'm one goddamn stupid lil' 17 yr old sticking in ur class just because of the teacher. If you had let me completed my sentence, I would have definitely said this ,

"Yes, sometimes it's stupid to thing that teachers are at fault when you don't comprehend fully a subject. But then I ask you again? A Levels. What about it? How is it important and beneficial and DIFFERENT it is compared to urs when you're sitting for it? It's a two-way work. YOU NEED TO TRUST THE TEACHER FOR YOUR OWN BACKING UP OF YOUR OWN HARDWORK LATER ON. There is sincerely NO POINT IN DOING YOUR OWN WORK WHEN A TEACHER, WHO IS A TEACHER IN THE 1st PLACE, (define teacher if you have to), who posts pointless videos in hope that his students can learn. I find it pointless".

& if you think of discriminating me further next time, then I urged you to ask yourself whether you have gotten the trust of your own students all these years?

PAE has been memorable and inspirational. I remembered feeling so dreadful about it when my mum asked me to sign up as I was so into working that this PAE thing had to be the complete stop to whatever that I was trying to do. BUT. BUT. BUT. It was all worth it. It was all a different separate experience altogether. I have so much people to thank for and you know I don't like doing this. It's just too sad that a seed that is starting to grow has just hit drought at its place.

08'A02
I love you all like crazy. I am really sorry about the class t-shirt and I hope to get it done ASAP. Will update you guys.

We came in as unknowns.
Different characteristics, behaviours we own.
As trust and understandings, we unfold.
Gratitude and appreciation have we bestowed.

From Freedom Writers to Changi Village
to the Movies and Geylang we've ace
We're still bonded, we're still the same.
08'A02, we've yearned to crave.

Shah, thank you for always listening to whatever crap I have given you during PAE. You've been a great addition in my social life and I hope we'll still be in contact even though you're there in Sci stream. =D Kau rock brudder!
Zuhairee a.k.a Zuzu/Zuz/Ree (HAHA!), you too like Shah. Thank you for everything. Thank you for bringing your guitar. Thank you for listening to me talk,sing, shout and say 1001 vulgarities. Kau rock brudder! =)
Faisal, hope we'll be closer during Hockey yea? Stay cool and history-ish. =)
Ping Chong a.k.a Chong Ping, remember you were the 1st one I talked to? Okay besides Faisal though? Hope you got your choice in MJC yeah. Keep me updated as always. BE POLITICAL =)
Clement, SOCCER FREAK! I like you la. I think you're the MOST demure guy in class and you're staying right? COOL. Talk to me you know. Haha =)
Matthias, you're ADDICTIVE LAUGHTER will always be remembered. =)
Tedmond, go ahead! BURN MY HOUSE DOWN! YES YES! Revenge is sweet. =)
Jacyln, I think you're the closest girl in class I turned to huh? Class location, hmwk, numbers... everything la! Thanks for everything! =)
Priscilla, aiyah... you're really NEAT I can see. LOOK AT YOUR ENGLISH man. teach me soon okay? Tc.
Si Ning, we share the same thinking! Stay in touch babe.
Fiona, you're my opposite. You're so quiet babe. I'll see you soon =D
JingJing, HAHAHAHAH. YOU ARE SO HILARIOUS. (recalls... bus 29) =D Stay in touch too ya?
Jiayou, I've always forgotten your name but I remembered it! You're the girl whose so demure but full of that confidence within you. Don't be afraid to open up! Tc babe. Stay in touch. =D
Joween, OMG at your wide knowledge. Continue doing that babe! You're always remembered. =D

Lastly, to Ms Fernandez, THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS ABLE TO WITHSTAND MY NONSENSE EACH AND EVERYTIME. I've enjoyed ur GP and CME Lessons so much as compared to the other subjects. Appeal to be my FT larh k! You see my name and you'll go "OKAY! I will take this class!" HAHA. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING CHER! You're the best.!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING GUYS!

And to those whom I have been very close with...

Khai, you know I can't thank you enough. ALWAYS KEEP IN TOUCH. =D
Zahidah, continue to become my bencana alam. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! =D
Shafiq, didn't know we became close. Now, I'll miss you asking me and the rest... "MAKAN TAK?" Stay in touch dude. =D
TKGS Girls, korang rock behbeh! =)
Izzah, Diah and Saddiq, thanks for the warmth welcome for MLEP. See you guys soon ! =D
Safiah, haha.. I will meet you one day just for you to request whatever songs you want me to sing. Promise! =D
And to the others, sorry if I didn't specify ur names here... THANK YOU SO MUCH!

It's been a VERY GOOD experience. I don't want it to end. So here's my last exit...

"I am really sorry If I have hurt you guys in anyway during my actions, words or anything that has you feeling annoyed at me. Like other human beings, I make mistakes and I hope I am forgiven. I had so much fun with you guys and this heart desperately doesn't want it to end. I love you guys to death and I hope this experience doesn't end just this way and we'll meet soon one day. Thanks for everything. I can't thank you enough".

Love,

Muhd Syazwan
08'Ao2 (PAE).
19 Feb 2008.
0724hrs.

"even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme. Out of the doubt that fills my mind. I finally found that you and I collide"